Personal Growth

Emotionally Secure People Are Not Afraid of Sincerity

My humans… The ones who came into my life when I was at my worst, my best, my coolest, even my weirdest. They have repeatedly shown me something very simple, yet profound, “emotionally secure people are not afraid of sincerity”. You heard right. They don’t flinch at honest words… They don’t judge when emotions are expressedContinue reading “Emotionally Secure People Are Not Afraid of Sincerity”

If You’ve Ever Been Loved by Me

I was talking with a friend, as always, our conversation circled around the women in our lives. We are both incredibly proud of the kind of women we are surrounded by. Strong, kind, vibrant. But even in this shared pride, we are different. She has many best friends. I don’t have any. She has aContinue reading “If You’ve Ever Been Loved by Me”

Sometimes, I don’t want to disappear.

Sometimes, I don’t want to disappear. I want to learn German, to know the roots of words that once felt foreign and make them my own. I already read, write, and speak in four languages. And I write with both hands, in reverse, in every single one of them. I paint, I speak the languageContinue reading “Sometimes, I don’t want to disappear.”

Fragments of Souls I’ve Cherished

A random thought came to me why do I love watching interviews more than most other shows? I love it because there, I see people’s perspectives on everything how they view their life, career, what they think about spirituality, how they treat their soul, how they handle their emotions, how funny they are, the happiness,Continue reading “Fragments of Souls I’ve Cherished”

Loving without holding

Sometimes it’s not about perfection. If you love something, you will love it even in its mess. Sugar may be toxic to the body but that doesn’t mean we hate it. We just avoid it. Likewise, not everything we avoid needs to be hated. We can love… and still choose to stay away. Why chooseContinue reading “Loving without holding”

Too Much” Was Never Wrong

I admire people loudly, weirdly, unapologetically. There was a time I held myself back from everything because when I cared, nobody did. My availability made me feel valueless, even when I gave my all. I loved with a full heart, in the loudest way possible and somehow, that made me ashamed. Not because I wasContinue reading “Too Much” Was Never Wrong”

സ്നേഹം

അതെ ഞാൻ ഒരുപാട് മാറി… എനിയ്ക്ക് തന്നെ തിരിച്ചറിയാൻ കഴിയാത്തത്ര മാറി. “വേദനിക്കിലും വേദനിപ്പിക്കിലും വേണമീ സ്നേഹബന്ധങ്ങളൂഴിയിൽ” എന്നതെത്ര സത്യം. വളരെയധികം വേദനിച്ച വേദനിപ്പിച്ച സൗഹൃദങ്ങളുടെയും സ്നേഹങ്ങളുടെയും ആകെത്തുകയാണ് ഞാൻ. വേദനിച്ചു എന്നൊക്കെ പറയുമ്പോൾ ടോക്സിക് ആയി മാത്രം കാണണ്ട അത്രയധികം സന്തോഷങ്ങളും സ്നേഹവും ഉണ്ടായിരുന്നതിനാലാണ് വേദനയും ഉണ്ടായത്. കുറച്ച് വർഷങ്ങൾക്ക് മുൻപേയുള്ള എന്നെയും എനിക്കിഷ്ടമാണ്. പക്ഷേ ഇന്നത്തത്ര ഹൃദയവിശാലതയോ, കരുണയോ, ദയയോ, അനുകമ്പയോ എന്നിലുണ്ടായിരുന്നില്ല എന്നതാണ് സത്യം. ചുരുക്കി പറഞ്ഞാൽ കൂടുതൽ മനുഷ്യനായി തോന്നുന്നത് ഇപ്പോഴാണ്.Continue reading “സ്നേഹം”

Unseen

When I tell people I have PCOS, the instant reply I get is, “Oh, that’s okay, anyway, you don’t have any interest in having a child of your own.” No, it is not okay. Just because I don’t ever want to be a biological mother doesn’t mean that it is okay to have PCOS. ItContinue reading “Unseen”